lose you, part I

February 1981

Ninette Dupont is 24 (Mavise Dupont is 53, Fabrice Roux is 27, Saber Girad is 25)

Sometimes she has those moments when she's feeling dizzy and she just has to lay down,  close her eyes and try to clear her mind. She hates feeling lazy but she has no other choice right now. Worries flood her head and even though she tells them to leave they refuse.

'Curse you Ninette Dupont,'  she whispers, 'it was all your fault, your fault for doing anything out of the ordinary, your fault for searching that thrill'. She lays her hand over her chest and lets her tears break free. She quickly stops them. 'Now you have to deal with it all by yourself'.

She washes her face and picks up the phone. She dials her parents' number but no one answers. 'I'll just call them later.' She thinks. Ninette didn't ever deal with her problems without her mother's help and now's no time to start. She pours herself a glass of water and sits down by the phone.

What seemed like hours later Ninette hears the phone ring. It's her mother. 'Mom, I did something horrible!' Ninette says. She starts mumbling and crying to the phone until she stops herself again. She wants to look at her watch but she doesn't have it on, she's still in her pajamas. A few minutes later she hangs up.

She knows what her options are right now, and she doesn't like either one. She could rip the band aid or pull it slowly for her whole life, and Ninette isn't one to waste time, but she can't pick herself up from the sofa.

Ninette takes the phone and dials a number. 'Hey, I'm gonna need you to come'.

A few hours later when she's already dressed and waiting she hears the doorbell ring.

'Oh hi, come in.' Ninette says when she opens the door. 'I didn't expect you both to be here at the same time. I called both of you but I didn't think you'd arrive at the same time.' She says when she lets them both in. She can sense the awkwardness and confusion they both feel and has a sudden urge to scratch her neck. 'Well, never mind. What I have to say I have to say to both of you.'

'You can sit here.' Saber is the first to catch his seat on the sofa and Fabrice does the same once he's done. 'I called you here because I have something serious to tell you.' She pauses, 'I guess I should just say it, right?' They both just seem confused.

She's kind of confused herself, but she has to say it. 'There's no easy way for me to say this. I don't want to lose you.' She starts crying.

title is lose you by peaches

this video inspired the last scene but the video is kind of weird after the talking scene

to be continued...